Being Lost...

I am a middle aged white guy living in the suburbs. I have done well for myself but I have a head full of bad wiring that sometimes contributes to poor decisions. This is a blog about me and my demons. My demons are depression and mental health challenges. I have made some epic bad decisions along the way so I find it helpful to write them down and reflect on them. If someone else reads my blathering and finds it helpful, cool.

Showing posts with label male depression. Show all posts

Showing posts with label male depression. Show all posts

Friday, December 22, 2023

988, know this number.

In case you haven't heard, there is a new number to call for the Suicide Helpline; 988. Make a note of it. Even if you don't need ...

Wednesday, December 14, 2022

It would have been a relief...

This is a really hard post to share but its an important one because its about the trauma that others suffer from when someone they love tri...

Wednesday, June 22, 2022

Triggers...not that kind of trigger.

For the longest time, when I drove by the parking lot when I tried to end it all, I used to get really anxious. I could feel my heart racin...

Friday, April 1, 2022

Someone else's definition of success...

I have a feeling this is going to be one of those posts that I will delete in a few days, after I look at it with a clearer head. I am not ...

Thursday, February 3, 2022

It's ok...

Going back to that July afternoon; by now I have now had my first brush with a SWAT team and had a dozen guns pointed at me, gotten my first...

Tuesday, November 23, 2021

Buying a gun

I am struggling with this one as I do not want to provide anyone with a step by step process on how to kill ones self. But this is mostly f...

Wednesday, March 3, 2021

My greatest fear...

So let's talk about something other than me trying to blow my head off for a bit, shall we? I am about to turn 51. Typically, at this...

Tuesday, February 23, 2021

How to change a tire.

I still have alot of bad days. Days when I wish that I would have been successful in the parking lot a few years ago. Not really serious, ...

Saturday, October 31, 2020

The people you see at Wawa...

I get up around 5:00am each weekday and drive up to my job about 30 miles from my house. Its a hellish drive, takes about an hour and a hal...

Monday, September 28, 2020

This isn't about anything other than the person and his family...

Last night, amid all of the Twitter frenzy about Trumps tax avoidance, there was a story that, while not getting the same attention, was get...

Sunday, July 12, 2020

Welcome to the psych unit

My intent of this post is to simply share my experience and memorialize it. Since there are about two people who have read my blog so far a...

Saturday, November 2, 2019

If you wanna talk...

After I threw the weapon out of the car window, I got out and walked towards the swarm of SWAT guys with their guns pointed at me. I guess ...

Friday, August 9, 2019

Yeah, I'm still here...

Maybe he didn’t see me. Maybe he didn’t come looking for me. Maybe that cop car that went speeding through the lot didn’t see me or wasn’t e...

Wednesday, June 26, 2019

Who will walk your daughters down the aisle?

To be honest, I am not sure abut sharing this post as I don’t want to give away any secrets but the realty is that this is as much for me as...

Friday, May 17, 2019

What's my story?

I do not have a degree in psychology or social work. I have an undergraduate degree in art and an MBA. Tell me how those two mesh and I will...

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